Thursday, October 30, 2008

FAMU HOMECOMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WE ARE OFF TO TALLAHASSEE FOR MY ALMA MATERS HOMECOMING! FAMUUUU FAMUUUU FAM GOT DAMN U ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! I HAVENT BEEN IN 3 YEARS SO IM EXCITED! BRAYS 1ST HOMECOMING! 1ST IS DEFINITELY "SET TIME"! THEN BACK TO THE TAILGATE! BEFORE GOING OUT BRAYS GONNA BE TIGGER FOR HALLOWEEN AND WE'RE GONNA GO TRICK OR TREATING! HES GONNA BE SOOOO CUUUUUTE! AFTER THAT PARTY TIME! BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE IVE BEEN TO A "LET OUT".
IT SUCKS BECAUSE ITS KINDA BITTERSWEET. WHEN I GO VISIT THE THEATRE IMMA THINK OF KENNETH, WHEN I SEE MY STRIKER BROTHERS AND MAHOGANY SISTERS IMMA THINK OF KENNETH. I KNOW THERES GONNA BE SOME REMINISCING BUT ITS ALL GOOD STUFF! LOVE YOU KENNY! THANKS FOR BEING THE BEST PARTNER IN DREAMGIRLS! IMMA WATCH MAHOGANY AND STRIKER SHOWS TILL I FALL ASLEEP! WATCH OVER ALL OF US! XOXOXO!

ON ANOTHER NOTE...
WHEN YOU HURT A PERSON ON PURPOSE THAT SHOWS A LOT ABOUT YOUR CHARACTER! IVE LEARNED ALOT THIS PAST MONTH. SAME SCRIPT DIFFERENT CAST! I JUST WISH I DIDNT CONTINUE BEING A SUPPORTING ACTOR. WHEN YOU TAKE A SITUATION TO ANOTHER LEVEL, IT CHANGES EVERYTHING! YOU NOT ONLY HURT 1 PERSON YOU HURT ALL THAT ARE INVOLVED BECAUSE THEY ALL BELIEVED THE SAME THING! SO IF X-ING SOMEONE OUT "MY" LIFE MEANS NO MORE DRAMA..WELL CALL ME MARY J! SORRY BUT I CANT DO IT! I CANT LET SOMEONE ENTER AND EXIT MY LIFE WHENEVER THEY WANT. DOESNT WORK THAT WAY. SO AS OF NOW, THEY DONT EXIST...AT LEAST NOT RIGHT NOW.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

RIP KENNETH DILLARD



Mr Striker Brother, a good friend, a good father, a good son and a great person! After this happened Ive realized none of this drama is worth it....I love you Kenneth! Watch over me! Ill miss you soooooo much and always remember our days in College and in Miami! Ill always remember the weekly text about everything. Dreamgirls with the Essential Theatre (you were the best partner everrrrrr!), and just you being you! I love you man! Damn!

He had a wife, 2 kids, and only 25. He was so close to perfect. WHY?! I keep losing people! 4th person this year that was close to me...damn.....

SHOWTIME!


WE, FANTACHI'K, WILL BE PEFORMING LIVE AT CHEYENNES SALOON WEDNESDAY NIGHT IN ORLANDO, FL AROUND 12-1AM! THE CLUB IS LOCATED DOWNTOWN ON CHURCH STREET. IF YOURE COMING FROM ORANGE AVE, PASS DRAGON ROOM, MAKOS AND ANTIGUA! ITS OVER THE RAILROAD TRACKS AND NEXT TO THE DESSERT LADY! WE'RE THE HEADLINERS AND WE'RE DOING A BURLESQUE SHOW FOR HALLOWEEN!!!!! ITS GONNA BE SIIICCCKKKKK! SEE YOU THERE! IM OUTTIE! HOLLERRRRR!!!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Life is Short...

Okay, so within the past week Ive seen so many crazy things on the news that have really frightened me. 1st there was the news anchor who was beat up and left for dead in her home. They said it looked like a crime of passion not a robbery so it was either someone she knew, turned down or just someone who didnt like her. They came in her home while her dogs were outside and tried to kill her. She was found the next morning by her mother because she didnt answer her morning wakeup call. Then today I hear about Jennifer Hudson's mother and brother who were found shot and killed in their home. They also abducted her 7 year old nephew. That too was said to be a crime of passion or domestic violence. Crimes like these scare me and they have really been getting to me ever since the story of who I was broke. Im sick of being blown off everytime i get threatened. Ive called the cops over one person (Patricia McCann) in Kentucky...KENTUCKY?! She tried to hack my phone, was posting as me, then began to threaten my life on my private personal myspace page. Nothing was done except they gave her a warning and I received a copy of the police report. When they tried to question other people who may know who it was about the case (before they received the name and IP address) no one cooperated. Ive had Bitch written on my car (Ive since traded it in), and Ive received 7 pieces of mail asking for my childs fathers autograph or just random questions about if this is really where I live. To me thats crazy AND scary and Im sick of being mellowed out. You hear so many times about people being abducted or killed and there were warnings. Im scared. I admit it. Im terrified. I have a precious little boy and Id go crazy if something happened to him. Whats just as bad is if something happens to his mother...me. I need to move. Soon. Im thinking about going to stay with my parents just so I can feel safe. This world is dangerous and I cant fight off someone who is set on hurting me. I dont like guns, I do sleep with a knife upstairs but what else can I do? Ive been followed, my studio closes at night, and people know who I am. I cant live in a bubble, I know, but I also cant live being paranoid. I just want someone to take these threats I receive seriously. People are CRAZY and it always seems to be the people you least expect it from. It can be a friend of a friend, or a cousin of a flame. You never know... at least neither of the people I mentioned above expected it would ever happen to them.....

Thursday, October 23, 2008

My Vacation and my Revelations...A New Start to the Old Me!





I know that last part of my title may not quite make since to some but to others its exactly what theyve been waiting for. The old Royce to come back. Well after this week Ive found her and I reintroduced myself to...well myself. Id lost so much of me these past few years and even more within the past year. I thought when I got saved I was on the path of my new beginning but I see now that it was God way of testing me and seeing how far I would stray. I got a lil ways away but I definitely came back. Before I get into my vacation and revelations I must say that one of the biggest lessons Ive learned was that I cannot fault or hate someone because of who they are or what theyve become. I can and will, however, distance myself and my child for our own sake. People are a product of their environment and they wont change unless they think somethings wrong within themselves. Most never find that personal flaw and you cant MAKE someone realize theyve become exactly what they fear! Whether thats a bad friend, criminal, parent, or person period, if that individual doesnt find that fault, they will never change and I nor you can stand next to them if theyre bringing you down or making you feel less than you are. With that said welcome to my revelations and the New Start to the Old Me...



Monday:
Today I left for Clearwater, FL around 4pm. I arrived @ my hotel on Sand Key beach around 6. When I got to my room I immediately felt a sense of calmness. My view is ridiculously beautiful. Bray and I walked rt 2 the balcony and sat out there for about an hr. Erica came by and we went to eat at Sheppards. It was sooooo good. We talked a lot and she started giving me some advice. I left my computer @ home so every time I had an urge to Google myself I couldn't. That helped a lot. I have to admit it was kinda hard but very necessary. I guess I kinda, just kinda understand what withdrawals feel like to a heroine addict. You have 2 resist the urge and its hard 2 resist it when its right in front of you. However once you get passed that stage it can be right in front of you and you walk away. I want to get to tht point. Hopefully by the end of my trip I will finally be able to do tht. So when I get home and get in front of my computer, my first test will be just that. I do care what ppl think about me. Id be lying if I said I didn't. I think every1 cares 2 a certain extent but I really do because I know Im a good person, good daughter, good sister, great mother and a very good friend. I hear that everyday but I just wish everyone knew it before they started speaking so negatively about me when they don't know me or don't take the time out 2 care 2 know me. It does hurt but im learning that ppl talked about god and ppl will still talk about u when youre dead. Well this Old School handwriting w/ pen and paper is getting tiring so till 2morrow...im outtie! Hollerrrrr!



Tuesday:
Today we woke up and stood outside on the balcony for a bit. We (erica, bray and I) then went by the pool and took a dip. After that I went parasailing (yes I do the things black ppl aren't supposed to do, sorry mom n dad but at least I didn't bungee jump yet lolol). It was actually really relaxing and fun. It wasn't excited like swimming with the dolphins. It was a different exciting. You kinda feel like you're floating way up in the air. Not quite like flying but just floating. After that we came up and took some showers then headed to Crabby Bills. I loooooove seafood as u can tell. On the way back I saw the cutest thing...a down syndrome couple holding hands and wearing matching T-shirts. There's someone for everyone like Erica would say. We did get a lil laugh @ this one guy who rode by with "just divorced" and happy faces written on his car! Can we say "wow". After that Erica had to go to work, she's a cop not a highway patrol, one of those serious 1s like the lady on The 1st 48. She's foserious<---like my word? Lolol....anyways, I went back up to my room, and put bray down for his afternoon nap.
Then I finally took the time to reflect on me and what's been going on in my life. All the drama and all the hate. For what? Why do I feed into it sometimes? Why do I even give it the time of day? Its nothing new to me so why am I now shocked? I've been hated on ever since I went to FAMU and got my culture shock. As much as I was ready to leave when I graduated, over time I realized I learned a lot abt myself. Im a strong, beautiful and successful black woman. Its a shame that within our race we seem to down each other rather than lift each other up. My career has taken a different turn than planned but that's Gods doing. I have my studio, and I have 2 companies. The plan to go to LA and pursue ME wasn't Gods idea for me so that's ok. I've done a lot and im extremely proud of myself. I have so much more to do and Im enjoying watching it prosper. I want my son to be proud of his mom and know that I tried my best! When it comes to a significant other I realize Im attracted to athletes and im not ashamed of it. Why should I be. Im an athlete and I've always been one. I was a gymnast for 8 yrs, I've been dancing for over 20 and I was a competitive 6A HS and college cheerleader for 9yrs. You probably saw me on ESPN a couple times...I was tht 1 token black girl flipping and getting tossed in the air lolol. I can't worry about what ppl think. Its not about money. I don't care if he played flag football. Its just something about an athletic guy that attracts me. 1 I like tall guys, 2 I like guys that take care of themselves and that r n shape. 3 I love the idea of competition. Not always but a lot. From air hockey and go kart races @ the fun spot to pulling for my Colts. I enjoy watching my significant other doing what they love and having such a strong passion for their sport. Ill also get out there and play flag football myself. Thats just me and I embrace that. If ppl can't understand that oh well. What sucks is that almost everyone I date is younger than me. Thats not on purpose. Its because most guys my age or older think im jailbait. im constantly being looked at in the mall or supermarket with the "shame on you" eyes because I have a baby and they think im 16. I wish I could walk around with a shirt on that says "im grown" but then it would just turn into "why aren't you married" so whatever. With that age thing also comes the maturity factor. Sometimes they're on my level other times they're not. Sometimes it even seems as tho they are until something life-changing happens and the scared puppy dog comes out or they just flip the script. I guess thts my problem to deal with. "Enjoy it royce thats a compliment, you'll enjoy it when you get older". Well, im old enuf now to realize that id rather look my age just long enuf to not have to show my id for r rated movies or for High Schoolers to be askin 4 my number.




Wednesday:
I could honestly wake up to this view everyday. The weather has been perfect each day. Erica had to go to work early today so Bray and I are on our own for most of the day. So we got up, ate a lil breakfast and went down to the pool again. Brays been taking swimming lessons at the YMCA so I was doing some exercises with him and he's a lil swimmer. He knows how to float and find the edge and he's only 11mos. I think we've gotten 5 shades darker we've been outside so much. I like it, we have a nice lil glow. Anyway, after the pool we went down to the beach and ate some more seafood. I watched Bray run and fall in the sand and I couldn't help but :-) and laugh. He's so carefree and he loves his mommy. He would run to the edge, slap the water, turn around and run back to me laughing. Almost every1 around us swore he was at least 1 1/2. Lil did they know he's just naturally tall..... lol. Its so funny how he looooves being outside, especially the beach. When we're in the room he stands either at the window by the door or on the balcony in his diaper. Its so amazing watching him grow up. I haven't had a chance to get my massage but im set to get one 2morrow morning @ 10am so Erica can watch bray. After we left the beach we came back to the hotel and pretty much had a lazy day. I ordered Step Brothers on pay-per-view and we ate icecream. Then we took a nap. We were awakened by Erica beatin on the door like a crazy person. I answered to door and she goes "oh, u were sleep?", im like nah, I just like sittin n the dark. Anyways, she wanted to watch the Rays game while I wanted to catch up on Americas next top model...after all that game is gonna be on till midnite. Im NOT a baseball fan @ all but I admit I watched the game for about an hr ok maybe 30mins lolol. I then went to get a soda from the soda machine and when I came back the door wasn't working. I put the key in and the light turned green but the lock wouldn't release all the way. Erica is meanwhile lookin @ me thru the door laughing like its the funniest thing ever. Im like open the damn door! She's on the floor literally rolling. Bray then comes to the window with his head tilted sideways like whats goin on? Y are u outside. I tried like 4 times and I started cursing. Erica said I sounded like I had tourrettes. Whatever! Lolol. When I got inside bray wanted to all of a sudden play. After beating up the window blinds he wanted to play chase. So Erica n I each got on diff ends of the suite and he went crazy. He would run to 1 of us, we'd grab him and he'd laugh so hard and scream we couldn't help but laugh too. Then he'd turn around n run to the other with his arms up like a lil monster. It was hilarious. We played that game for abt 30mins until he started fartin everywhere. I guess tht icecream finally got 2 him. Erica was like did u fart? Im like No thts braylon. "Stop lyin royce" she said. 'Im foreal, I swear it wasn't me, thats braylon". She didn't believe me till he did it right by her face. "Omg it smells like a grown man fart" she said. "I know" I replied, its ridiculous. A stinky poop followed shortly after with a big :-) during each push. Lolol. Revelations for today I I realize how great of friends I have. Real friends. Not the 1s that want something, or hint at wanting something. Real genuine caring friends who really want the best for me. They pick me up when im down and they never steer me wrong. They tell me when im wrong and when im right... especially when im wrong. They never hype me up to do something out of character or that could hurt another person despite how much I want to retaliate. They hold me when I cry. They support me when I dream and they applaud me when I succeed. I appreciate the most when they tell me certain things are my fault due to my dumb decisions. Then they tell me how I can fix them if I want to. Granted im hardheaded a lot but they understand that and don't let me stray away to long. I've made a lot of knee-jerk decisions in my life and some big ones in the last year. Some have helped others have hurt but they've all been lessons I've learned from. This trip was much needed. I return home Thursday night but im staying on vacation till Saturday. I miss my family and my friends. You never realize how much you take life for granted and your blessings till you sit back and think. Some people weren't brought up the way I was. I have 2 parents still together and in love. They still play like schoolkids. Its not always perfect but its love. My family owns, sells, and has inherited several pieces of land. We have our own travel agency. Our family name is extremely well known in Orlando and has been in the Orlando Newspapers several times for history purposes and stories. I grew up not having to "want" for much but I never took it for granted because so many of my friends came from poverty. I traveled all over the US before I was 13 because we always took family vacations. I went to college on a full scholarship. Im been to over 13 different countries to perform. I've been a part of 2 of the NBA's BEST dance teams, LITERALLY! I performed @ Allstars in Houston. I have a beautiful, smart and healthy baby boy. I have a successful career. Im blessed and I may not like the way certain things are in my life but there's countless numbers who would love to be in my shoes so in the end I can't complain. Till 2morrow, im outtie! Hollerrrr.





Thursday:
Well today is our last day here in Clearwater on Sand Key Beach. Im definitely coming back. I think this is my new getaway. Its only abt 2hrs away and it looks like a little piece of Heaven. I called the Bellboy to come get our stuff and Erica took Bray downstairs. I stayed behind about 20 minutes to look back on my trip out here. I walked on the balcony and for the first time I let go. I let it all go. The anger, the hurt, the hard times, everything. Id be trying to stay in control for so long even the tears that fell I controlled. I used to tell myself no 1 is worth my tears. Well, that's not true because if no 1 is worth your tears then that means they never had your heart. So for those 20 minutes I cried and I screamed. It felt good. I screamed @ the top of my lungs and the people downstairs by the pool heard me and looked up. I didn't care. I needed it. Id kept those feelings in so long it was unhealthy. I let an anonymous email linking me 2 a page send me to the hospital with a severe panic/anxiety attack and high blood pressure. Id let someone back in that didn't deserve to be there so easily. I took the rest of my time up there to reflect and make a promise to myself and God. I don't remember the exact words but it kindof went like this:
Dear God,
Its me again. I kno I've disappointed you and I've walked away from you a lot this past year. I gave my life to you almost a year ago and I still haven't learned. Im trying God, I really am. I can't do this without you. I need you. I need you in my heart, my soul and my mind. I need you for my strength and my guidance. I need you for when I don't know what to do or what to say. I need you to keep him around strong male figures like my dad, my brother, my uncles and my friends. I mostly need you to be in his heart and let him know I tried. Its hard but I know you have good reasons. I love you and I need you so much right now. Im fallin to my knees so many times to you and now I just want to stand. I want to be that girl everyone admired and wanted their daughters to be like again. I want to be that strong woman who walked with her head held high. I want to be the child you want me to be. I know I may not do everything in your will and I know I will sin. Im not perfect but I am your child. I promise to try my best from this day forward to not turn my back on you. I promise to keep my life in your hands. I promise to treat my body and mind like a temple because I am a Black Queen. I promise to take all the things I may not agree with as a lesson and not try to force what you don't see for me. I promise to put you 1st and my son 2nd. My family 3rd and my career 4th. I promise God because I know you are steering me to the Real happiness. I need all these lessons in order to appreciate the blessing you are setting forth for me. I love you God. Help me. I need you, I love you and you are my Everything. Amen.

With that prayer, I signed my bill, left it on the counter and grabbed the doorknob. I said one last thing, this time to myself. I left room 504 at the Marriot Suites on Sand Key Beach. I didn't just leave the room, I left all the mental baggage I brought in there and walked out a free woman.




Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!

Today marked the 38th year my parents have been married. Its so cuuuuute! Theyre still very much in love. Im not saying its always perfect, of course not. Whose marriage is ALWAYS PERFECT? Sure they argue on occassion but mostly its about what to watch on T.V. or the fact that my brother and I are grown and my dad still thinks we're 12 lolol. They still wrestle and they still play pranks on each other. Just the other day my dad called my mom while we were at the mall and they were playin on the phone like lil kids. hahahaha. I pray to find love like that someday soon! Happy Anniversary Mommy and Daddy! I love you soooo much! xoxoxo

Monday, October 20, 2008

TIME FOR A VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Im off to Clearwater to chill with my girl Erica! I have a bay view and a suite so yall knw its about to be onnnnnnn! I desperately need a massage so thats number 1! Ill have pics available when I get back. Im not taking my comp so Ill respond to any messages on my email, facebook or myspace when I return! To my friends aka peeps lol, plz dont and yall know what im talkin about! Real Talk! Plz! I know you mean well but let it go! Hollerrrrr! Love yall!

FYI- UPDATE!


TO ALL THESE STUPID SITES POSTING CRAP ABOUT ME....AGAIN! IT IS NOT THAT SERIOUS!
FIRST OF ALL, TO WHOEVER POSTS AS ILOVETHISGAME2 AND HESAIDSHESAID...WHATS YOUR PR CHARGE?! YOU HAVE TAKEN TIME OUT OF YOUR LIFE TO POST ABOUT ME AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I NEED TO PAY YOU FOR THE PUBLICITY. PLEASE SEND ME YOUR ADDRESS SO I CAN WRITE YOU A CHECK!

SECOND, WHAT IS THIS CRAP ABOUT TALK SPORTS? FOR EVERYONES INFORMATION, I AM A MEMBER OF TALK SPORTS AND I DELETE ALL COMMENTS THAT ARE WRITTEN ABOUT ME. I DONT POST ON THAT SITE BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE ME LOOK DUMB SINCE YOU CAN SEE IP ADDRESSES DUMBASSES! I CALLED THE COPS AND THE PERSON WHO PLACED ALL THE PHOTOS OF MY CHILD, ME, AND MY CHILDS FATHER WAS A PERSON BY THE NAME OF PATRICIA MCCANN IN KENTUCKY! I WAS BEING HARASSED BY HER AND SHE ATTEMPTED TO HACK MY CELL PHONE (SIDEKICK), AND MY PRIVATE MYSPACE PAGE! SINCE THAT DIDNT WORK SHE COPIED MY STATEMENT, POSTED IT, AND TOLD ME TO DIE. SHE STATED SHE WOULD ALWAYS FIND ME ALONG WITH SEVERAL OTHER THREATS! THE MODERATOR OF THAT SITES NAME IS RANDY SO IF YOURE THAT INTERESTED IN FINDING OUT WHAT REALLY HAPPENED AND SO YOU CAN STOP LYING ON ME CONTACT HIM AND HE WILL TELL YOU OFFICER ORBELANDOR OF THE ORANGE COUNTY POLICE DEPT CONTACTED HIM FOR THE INFORMATION ABOUT THAT MEMBER! THATS THE TRUTH SO STOP LYING!

THIRD, I AM SINGLE! I AM NOT WITH MY CHILDS FATHER SO WHY ARE YALL STILL TALKIN ABOUT THIS? ITS OLD NEWS! IM MOVING ON, NOT LOOKING BUT LOOKING FOR MY PRINCE CHARMING. SOMEONE WHO CAN HANDLE MY HYPER SELF. I HAVE MY OWN DANCE STUDIO/COMPANY, AND I AM ALSO THE FOUNDER OF A BURLESQUE GROUP CALLED FANTACHI'K. N0W,AS FAR AS THE POSTERS... I HAVE SOME IDEAS OF WHO THE HESAIDSHESAID PERSON COULD BE AND THE INITIALS ARE MD, BK, AD OR PS! THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE. I AM SO SICK OF THIS DRAMA AND IF YALL WANNA PLAY WITH FIRE I CAN TURN UP THE HEAT SO HOT, HELL'S GONNA LOOK LIKE A SKI RESORT! I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE AND I HAVE NO REASON TO POST ANONYMOUSLY! IF I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY I WILL POST AS ROYCE ON MY SITES! PLEASE BELIEVE I WILL BRING HITS TO MY SITES BEFORE I BRING HITS TO SOMEONE ELSES! SO KICK ROCKS, GO PLAY IN TRAFFIC, AND DRINK BLEACH TO ALL THOSE WHO POST NEGATIVE STATEMENTS ABOUT ME, STEAL MY PICTURES, AND CLAIM TO KNOW OR BE ME. THERES ONLY ONE ROYCE AND I ALWAYS...LET ME REPEAT ALWAYS ADMIT TO WHAT IVE SAID, OR WRITTEN! LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!

Id like to thank all the people who sent me emails on my myspace page calming me down. I appreciate it! I have humbled myself in the situation by taking off the F-u's to those 3 sites. Honestly, I took it off because I heard theyre crazy and will end up posting something crazy and I really dont need that. So yes Im admitting that was a big reason in taking it off. However, I know girls will be girls and I cant stop anyone from talkin about me. So it is what it is. Again, thanks for ALL the messages and the 1 comment that was left lolol. I am not upset with what mediatakeout wrote about me, what I was upset about was a few of the comments that were completely off topic and proceeded to bash me. Those ive noticed have since been removed so thanks for that. I appreciate it. Lastly, I AM NOT SUICIDAL! Wow! Yall dont get me that worked up. I vent then im over it! If you continue to keep this subject up so be it. I guess Im just that interesting! Sooooo THAAAAAAAANK YOUUUUUU!

Oh, and by the way hesaidshesaid, you told on yourself. You said you and your girl posted all the pictures after u tried to claim I did it. That was hilarious. Remember what you post before you start trying to make your lies make since. 1st youre married, then youre a self proclaimed groupie... 2nd you said you have my IP address, well what is it??? Im curious since I attend UCF now... hahaha. 3rd, I really do need to pay you. Youre good at being a professional hater! Love ya! Im off to enjoy my vacation. Continue working until I get back! Im outtie!



MOVING ON.....

Thursday, October 9, 2008

A Much needed night out!




Life has been hard lately but Im trying to push through. Like they say, "When life gets too hard to stand, kneel!". So Ive been praying for a change lately. Ive learned to never say things cant get any worse because THEY CAN and they HAVE! Its okay tho because Im a strong person and even tho the tears may fall constantly for a few days I know they wont last forever. I really dont understand how people can be so cold hearted and evil. I dont understand how you can say for so long you dont want to be like something or someone and be JUST like them in the end. How can you try to play someone with another in the same city, especially when i know EVERYBODY here...almost?! But, whatever! I feel like some years have been wasted but I know they taught me a lesson.

So...with that said, I went out to 1st Fridays downtown. I also stopped by Whispers Sat night for about an hour but I was clubbed out from the night before. No, I dont go out a lot but when I do I like to have fun...as you can see by the pics! I felt a lot better even tho I had to catch myself from crying a few times so I ran to the bathroom. Anyways, funny story...You know how you get real crunk when your "jam" comes on? Well, back in the day that "jam" used to be "F^ck them other N's" <---I HATE that word by the way and ull never hear me say it...maybe in a song...maybe...ok back to the story... Okay so the song started playin and we're all huddled up like a pack of football players rockin back in forth singin the words "B!tch, Im down w? no limit, and ill ride for tha cause, im the N on the tank w/ the big f^ckn balls....blah blah blah u kno the rest...well, apparently someone thought our huddle was their group and she kinda huddled up with us and was jammin...we're all lookin like who is this chick, and she has her eyes closed like she is sooo feelin it...we kinda back away and was just looked at her trynna figure out if shes drunk, high, or just different...well when she opened her eyes she looked at us like WE were crazy and her girls were behind her ROLLING! We didnt wanna laugh right in front of her but its kinda contagious when 1 person...just 1 person does that snicker and then every1 bursts cuz they cant hold it anymore. I felt so bad...okay no i didnt but i could tell she was soooo embarassed.
I promise it was funny if you were there...not so much when you read it but whatever Im not deleting lolol. Aight im outtie! Hollerrrrrr!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

OMG

Its been a loooooong time! I looked at the date of my last post and was like SERIOUSLY? Anyways, pretty much the same story...working at my studio! However, BRAYLON IS WALKING! YEPPERS! He started on Sept 22 actually and has been going ever since. He turned 10 mos on Sept 18 so 4 days after he was officially a Toddler. Its so cute! He looks like a Frankenstein but hes so proud of himself he smiles and laughs every step he takes. Now hes trying to run tho so he gets mad when he falls. Hes also taking swimming and hes doing really well. The studio officially opened September 29 (1st wk of October) and it looks GREAT if I do say so myself! Im a little upset with Tmobile since my sidekick completely stopped working and after 45mins they asked me how old my SIM card was. I said ummmm over 2yrs...they proceeded to say "Maam, ure supposed to change out ur sim card every 6mos to 2yrs, thats why its not connecting to the tower!". Im pissed...did any1 else know that or am I just slow??? So basically Ive upset a few ppl I was supposed to meet up with because I had no way to contact them and I left the business phone at the office. On a sad note, I feel like a horrible Doggymommy because I dropped my minipom and he hurt himself. Hes doing better but hes still a little disoriented. Hes running and playing but you can tell hes still in some pain so Ive been trying to show him a lil more love lately than I usually do. Thats about it so Im outtie!!! Hollerrrrr!