Stalkers...

Okay...sooo before I get to my post later 2nite about the countdown I felt the need to blog about this again. 1st, I got the full address of the main person whose been leaving comments on all these random comment/message boards and it kinda shocked me. I feel like I already knew but its always worse when you see it on paper. Theyve been coming to my page like everyday along with a few other but this 1 in particular was a little suspect to me. I mentioned a little story about this person a few blogs ago so I wont elaborate on that. What I will say, however, is that it takes a very cold hearted, envious, selfish, and hungry person to do what they did. Its extremely obvious as to why certain people attempt to ruin the lives of others in order to only help themselves. It takes a very manipulative person to be able to say and do so much via internet then pretend as if they have no idea what happened or play savior. When someone goes as far as 2 separate a person from their child because of attention or fear of losing them it becomes a more serious matter. The way its done however is never really face to face, its behind the back. Im saying this because Ive been there before. I remember being in a relationship in college when my ex thought I was cheating on him with a gay guy. He proceeded to turn my roommates (which Id known since HS) against me with lying, fake emails, plotting, stealing, and even vandalizing one of their cars. All the blame was put on me and for over a year after it happened they believed it. He was gorgeous, soft spoken, silly, in school, our age, a model, and everyone LOVED him. He was one of those you'd least expect to do anything crazy but it "wasnt in his character". Well, Ive never really had to prove myself until that moment. I was forced to move out of my apt because my roommates had turned into evil people all due to hearsay. They were breaking my things, leaving threats on my door, prank calling my phone, gettin in my face like they wanted to fight, etc. It was probably one of the most awful experiences Ive ever been thru. I stayed with another friend for the last 2 wks before I graduated and when I went to get my stuff from my apt, theyd broken in my room claiming I had stuff of theirs. This is after I let one of them borrow my clothes because she didnt have many, another I gave my extra TV that was for the living room because she didnt have one in her room, and the same 1 with no clothes, I gave my extra comforter set because she didnt have that either. I cooked for these people and I was there for them no matter what. BUT 1 person, a jealous boyfriend that didnt have the signs, turned all that around. For a year I dealt with losing 3 friends and couldnt believe it...A YEAR! Then one day I got a message from LF saying he was sorry. Saying he missed me. Saying he didnt know my friend was gay and after he said everything it was too late to take it back so he let it continue. That hurt. I couldve sent that message to my former roommates/friends but I didnt. I felt that if our friendship and everything I did for them wasnt strong enough to get past a lying boyfriend then they werent worth it. I do see 2 of them on occassion and we speak like nothing ever happened. It was brought up once with 1 of them and they said after speaking with their mother they realized it probably wasnt true. However, they never came to me. I asked why she never said anything and her excuse was "I felt bad...". Well, so did I. We were too close to let that happen. Now we're just associates. My point in this blog is that no one should be able to come between those who mean the most to you. Theres a reason certain people are in your life. The devil comes in all disguises and its always hard to figure him out. That ex boyfriend? No he didnt go to jail or do something crazy to go to a psych ward...I know thats what yall thought I was gonna say. Hes still a little different but still puts on that charm and innocence. Maybe thats why I get so upset. Because Ive been there before and I see it happening to someone else. However, its not just someone else...this time it involves families, a child, friends, etc. All for what. Its not worth it. Its just gonna get worse. Its sad but it is. To the person Im talkin about. This message was for you. Im not trying to be TOO mean sweetheart but I do know your motives. Youre not in love, youre hungry. Youre desperate. So youre taking things too far. Understand that whats meant to be will be. All the threats, anonymous messages, and stalking is uncalled for. I dont know you, I know of you. You dont know me, you know of me. I lost respect for you long time ago with one statement I was told about you. Thats not going 2 change. We dont care for each other...so what. That gives you NO right to come between the 2 of them. Thats sick! Cold hearted and just plain wrong. The fact that youve accomplished (isnt that your word) the tearing apart of several people to draw you in closer is only the Devils doing. One day God is going to take control. I think right now Hes hoping you fix it yourself. All I asked for was an apology and for you 2 stop. You havent. I dont know how youre doing it but you must be really good. Saying and doing ALL THE RIGHT THINGS face to face then going back to say and do all the wrong things by yourself or with ur friends. What kind of person are you? Youre sick! Kinda crazy and deranged to. Smiling and pretending only gets so far. It may be a month, it may be years...it may be at the deciding moment that payback is given. I can do a lot but imma leave it to God cuz as much as I would love to kick your ass, Imma let God handle it. I just hope the other party wakes up before its 2 late.